hahas . nothing much to do now . so just decided to blog . hmmm . havent had time to put in all the stuuff . hahas . sorry =x im gonna redo all the links. cos..mine are kinda outdated now =P
im easily influenced by my surroundings. so since my surroundings are ONE BIG mess now . i guess i am t0o =/ its not a g0od thing . hahas. things are taking unexpected turns. WHERE IS CHERIE ? hahas . i cant seem to findd them now. andd i feel so lost . im not the secuure yiwen i used to be. when people ask me for advice now . im not confident of the things i say. not like before. the biggest blow i guess. was when things between us changed forr the worse. but i promised to remain HAPPY and POSITIVE . no matter what (: as long as i still have the energy to give a smile . there's HOPE . i refuse to lose. i WONT ((:
Friday, February 10, 2006,11:26 pm
UNFULFILLED. UNSATISFIED .
we had to sell the pictures today . it wasnt so successful i guess . haha . i dont know many people . so how was i goingg to sell ? =x today was the releasee of the o level results. but i couldnt go back to see my seniors . HAIS . they saidd they didnt see me . thenn i toldd them that i transferred . haha . i wantedd to go back . but coachh saidd that he would give me alot of detentions if i daree to leave . it was raining alot t0o. so the groundd was slippery andd we didnt runn that much . but keep havingg pains =x lolls . ohh no . growingg fat !! must exercisee moree =x
anyways . was supposed to have training today . but it was closedd. so me andd jasperr went to mac to visit jianmingg kor (: was soSO happy so see gilbert there . haha . talked to him . had SO MUCH to catchh up on . ohh my gosh . he toldd me hillgrovee was goingg to get a coachh le . GRR . i wanna be part of that ='( didnt get to play basketball this wholee week . i cann cry just at the thought of that . anyways . yeaps . talked andd talked until 9+ thenn went home .
there's so much i dont know . there's so much i cant feel . WHY ??
Tuesday, February 07, 2006,8:07 pm
LOOKING BACK ~
haiis . anotherr day . went back to 3e3 today . nobody was there of course . i sat at my oldd seat . thinking back on the g0od old times in the class . how me and justin would argue . i would laugh with the all of them . suanning the teachers together . cherie waiting outside for me . threee weeks . andd already we had an unbreakable bond . iMISS that so much . i tried imagining i was still theree . andd forr a while, i really felt like i was still theree . this was the yearr with the sec three camp. malaysiaa trip . andd ALL the fun stuff . haiis .
nothing feels right anymoree . forr the past few years of my life . basketball was the ONLY thing that couldd ever make me smile . no matterr what happened . be it hearbreaks or just plan bad m0od . just touching it could put the smile back on my face . but now . even THATS been taken from me . i really feel like cryingg . i thought of the old times . where i would go around waving like an idiot and saying hi to everyone . playing with the teachers, like we were all best friends . i miss it all . im not saying that cck is badd . but its just not my HOME .
i know i may seem wierdd andd over-dramatic . but thats how muchh iLOVE the sch0ol. i hadd finally foundd a perfect life . with my friends . and THEN that was takenn from me t0o. maybe i wasnt meant to find peaceee . everr-changing environment . LIFE IS FULL OF SURPRISES . my only wish now . to findd a source of happiness in my current life . SIGH =x
Sunday, February 05, 2006,8:26 pm
THE NEW BEGINNING (:
hehe . finally made the new blog i've been putting off since last yearr =D
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